I can’t believe this never crossed my mind before! I have been struggling to take action on the goals that I know deep in my heart I want to achieve. It just dawned on me today that the main reason I keep sabotaging myself is because I don’t believe that my dreams are possible to achieve. Sounds crazy. Because how could I have strong desires to achieve my goals and yet I can’t seem to get things done. I am convinced now that it’s because subconsciously, I don’t believe it can ever materialize.
The reason I think why my subconscious came to this conclusion is because of all the evidence it has collected over the years. That I don’t follow through on what I say I would do or I would procrastinate. And as it turns out, I act this way because deep inside, I never believed that my goals are attainable. And because I don’t think they are attainable, I don’t give my all to accomplish them. My belief affects the way I act and the way I act solidifies my belief. So it’s just like walking in circles and wondering why I am not getting anywhere.
So, unless I start believing that it is possible to attain my goals, I will remain in this cycle of overwhelm, frustration and regret. Overwhelmed at the amount of task in front of me, frustrated that I can’t seem to meet the output that I expect from myself and guilty when I procrastinate and avoid the work that needs to be done.
From now on, I will start thinking that it is definitely possible to achieve my goals. Because they are. I remember when I was in highschool and in university, during exams, it was never a question in my mind whether I will pass or not. It was a matter of whether I will get a perfect score or maybe 1 or 2 mistakes. And I believed that was possible before I took the exams.
Today, I am channeling my old self, to start believing again.
I am very excited how much this will change my life!
My Best Realization So Far (ChatGPT version)
I can’t believe this never occurred to me before. I’ve been struggling for years to take action on the goals I know I want. I always wondered why I kept sabotaging myself.
Today it finally clicked:
I haven’t been taking action because, deep down, I didn’t actually believe my dreams were possible.
It sounds strange—how can I want something so badly, yet not follow through? But now I see it clearly. My subconscious has been collecting “evidence” over the years: the times I didn’t follow through, the times I procrastinated, the times I quit. Those moments convinced a part of me that my goals weren’t achievable… so I stopped giving my full effort.
My belief shaped my actions, and my actions reinforced my belief.
A perfect loop. A loop that kept me stuck.
And unless I change that belief, I’ll stay trapped in the same cycle:
- feeling overwhelmed by everything I need to do
- getting frustrated when I fall short
- and feeling guilty when I avoid the work
All of it fed by the quiet thought: “Maybe this isn’t possible for me.”
But here’s the shift:
I’m choosing to believe that my goals ARE possible.
I’ve done it before. Back in high school and university, during exams, I never doubted whether I would pass. The only question was whether I’d make a perfect score or maybe miss one or two. I believed I could do it—even before I started writing.
I’m bringing that version of myself back.
The version who believed first, and then acted.
I’m excited to see how much this mindset shift will change my life.
Honestly… it already has.
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