I can’t believe this never crossed my mind before! I have been struggling to take action on the goals that I know deep in my heart I want to achieve. It just dawned on me today that the main reason I keep sabotaging myself is because I don’t believe that my dreams are possible to achieve. Sounds crazy. Because how could I have strong desires to achieve my goals and yet I can’t seem to get things done. I am convinced now that it’s because subconsciously, I don’t believe it can ever materialize.
The reason I think why my subconscious came to this conclusion is because of all the evidence it has collected over the years. That I don’t follow through on what I say I would do or I would procrastinate. And I act this way because deep inside, I never believed that my goals are attainable. And because I think they’re not attainable, then I don’t give my all to accomplish them. My belief affects the way I act and the way I act solidifies my belief. So it’s just like walking in circles and wondering why I am not getting anywhere.
So, unless I start believing that it is possible to attain my goals, I will remain in this cycle of overwhelm, frustration and regret. Overwhelmed at the amount of task in front of me, frustrated that I can’t seem to meet the output that I expect from myself and guilty when I procrastinate and avoid the work that needs to be done.
From now on, I will start thinking that it is definitely possible to achieve my goals. Because they are. I remember when I was in highschool and in university, during exams, it was never a question in my mind whether I will pass or not. It was a matter of whether I will get a perfect score or maybe 1 or 2 mistakes. And I believed that was possible before I took the exams.
Today, I am channeling my old self, to start believing again.
I am very excited how much this will change my life!
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